My friend asked me why I remain silent sometimes.. Why I seem to be lost in my world and I give a blank look.. Well, I go silent not because the lack of intimacy in the relation, but lack of time or paucity of words sometimes :( I realized that silence is the best way to know our true self.. There are so many moments that we can think about when we remain Silent...
We can even connect back to them because the feelings are so close to our heart… Memorable are the moments when I actually remained s i l e n t. . .
The moment when I got better marks than I expected; those numb moments of ecstasy and confirming from others “is it true”
The moment when I parted with my friends and the bus had just started; standing near the door and waving “bye” with my heart beating faster..
The moment after the HR had just called me and said “You are through!! Ur joining date is 6th of next month!! Congrats”
The moment when I left home for the first time for my job and I looked back at my parents who were worried that their daughter was leaving home, yet they seemed to be happy that I took the first step towards independence..
The moment when my manager said “Ur into the project for one of the big clients of our company” after my training period was over in the company..
The moment when I sat alone in my room after having said everyone that I cleared my exams for which I was preparing since 6 months..
The moment when the guy I liked most, smiled at me; I dint say anything, I just smiled back :)
The moment when my sister hugged me and said "bye munnu" after her marriage; I was clueless how to react, i had so much to tell her, i had hundred thoughts swirling in my mind, and i only gave a smile and said "ok" :(
I wonder y I dint say anything at those moments of happiness, joy, anger, pain.. all feelings just flowed ceaselessly in those flash moments... They say – The best way to communicate is through “Silence” Joy, Love, Grief, Surprise, Anger, Hope, Expectations, Support, Non-cooperation etc...
Imagine the importance of silence for a moment; when Ronan Keating gives a pause in the song “U say it best...when u say nothing at all” or when Bryan Adams pauses for a while along with music in the song... “Please forgive me, I can’t stop loving u...”
Think about the moment when u got tired and u reach your bed.. Instead of dozing u keep your eyes wide awake to simply stare the roof or some corner of the room silently.. Surely u were thinking.. Those moments when we listen to our own heart.. the decisions we make.. the promises we take.. So, next time when u go silent, listen to your heart.. feel the joy.. feel the pain.. listen to the desires.. feel the happiness.. feel the bliss.. Be cheerful :) Good luck :)
Last 2 weeks had been kind of tiresome…. It was only in the evening when I am seated in the bus that I relaxed.. Like most evenings, I let go off the time reading novel, listening to music or recollecting the memories or simply taking a nap in the bus and dreaming :) But yesterday I was in a different mood, to overcome my boredom, I thought of looking outside the tinted glasses of bus..
I saw few so called sophisticated “IT guys” spending their time with other class of people near the petty shops smoking…..who always boast on spending their time and money in costly restaurants and malls preferred to forget their sophistication for a while coz as per the recent rule imposed by the government, smoking is prohibited within the campus..
I saw many things like other BMTC and Company buses, shopping malls not crowded unlike other years, may be due to recession; showrooms where there were offers like “Buy 2 get 3 free”.. Old women scaring to cross the traffic hit roads.. Small business like sweet stalls, meat stall etc across the roads running dry, perhaps due to lack of customers.. Sadly I also saw kids selling books, towels, sun glasses, belts etc at the traffic signals.. Drunken men lying on the footpath.. Few others innocently watching the vehicles that were going past them… I saw other company buses which were going parallel with our bus.
Suddenly I remembered my sister’s question which she had asked me few years back… Why is that the bus full of IT ppl so silent, dull and sleepy… I know it contrasted the other industries bus traveler’s coz at least there was faint cheer on their faces or at least something to share and talk about…. And I finally got the answer, though it dint sound pleasant to me coz I am also from the same Software industry…
Here people simply ignore the person sitting beside perhaps coz most times they land up in social engineering incase they talk… This is probably the main reason why nobody prefers to sit beside each other.. Well, if the employee is married, then they have lot to think about their family and sometimes about the many loans they have done to save their tax or other personal reasons.. Other reason could be, the inferiority complex.. Well, there is another category of ppl who simply think that the bus journey is the time to sleep as the journey time is never less than an hour.. Few others set all the telephone appointments during traveling, so that they keep their cell phones intact to their ears until they feel warmth in their ears!!
Rarely ppl make friends… On the other hand, there are few ppl who become best buddies in bus journey itself…. In fact, I myself have friend for a lifetime whom I met in bus :)
The world is not a sugary mundane, but if we think it so, it can be :) If not as sweet as we expected it to be, at least not sour :)
Not all the office bus journeys are boring, unless we make it that way…
I saw few so called sophisticated “IT guys” spending their time with other class of people near the petty shops smoking…..who always boast on spending their time and money in costly restaurants and malls preferred to forget their sophistication for a while coz as per the recent rule imposed by the government, smoking is prohibited within the campus..
I saw many things like other BMTC and Company buses, shopping malls not crowded unlike other years, may be due to recession; showrooms where there were offers like “Buy 2 get 3 free”.. Old women scaring to cross the traffic hit roads.. Small business like sweet stalls, meat stall etc across the roads running dry, perhaps due to lack of customers.. Sadly I also saw kids selling books, towels, sun glasses, belts etc at the traffic signals.. Drunken men lying on the footpath.. Few others innocently watching the vehicles that were going past them… I saw other company buses which were going parallel with our bus.
Suddenly I remembered my sister’s question which she had asked me few years back… Why is that the bus full of IT ppl so silent, dull and sleepy… I know it contrasted the other industries bus traveler’s coz at least there was faint cheer on their faces or at least something to share and talk about…. And I finally got the answer, though it dint sound pleasant to me coz I am also from the same Software industry…
Here people simply ignore the person sitting beside perhaps coz most times they land up in social engineering incase they talk… This is probably the main reason why nobody prefers to sit beside each other.. Well, if the employee is married, then they have lot to think about their family and sometimes about the many loans they have done to save their tax or other personal reasons.. Other reason could be, the inferiority complex.. Well, there is another category of ppl who simply think that the bus journey is the time to sleep as the journey time is never less than an hour.. Few others set all the telephone appointments during traveling, so that they keep their cell phones intact to their ears until they feel warmth in their ears!!
Rarely ppl make friends… On the other hand, there are few ppl who become best buddies in bus journey itself…. In fact, I myself have friend for a lifetime whom I met in bus :)
The world is not a sugary mundane, but if we think it so, it can be :) If not as sweet as we expected it to be, at least not sour :)
Not all the office bus journeys are boring, unless we make it that way…
As a student of correspondence MCA in IGNOU, I have to attend the classes every weekend... After long working hours in weekdays at office, weekends are the only Sabbath....
Till the 3rd week of February, everything went on fine coz the classes had not started :) So, I got lot of time for shopping, roaming around and pampering myself.. As the saying goes, “All good things comes to an end”… My good days also came to an end in the last week of February when the classes actually kicked off :(
So, Saturday afternoon I picked up my bag and rushed to college as a sincere student.. By the way, I don’t bunk classes…the reason for which u will find out as u read on.... Classes got over early on the 1st day coz the lecturer was on leave… So, I happily went out to celebrate my friend's birthday :) Sunday morning I woke up late so I was late to college. After the lunch break we had lab session... & I must tell u that it was the most bugging time.
I noticed that it was not only me who had got irritated with the classes.. Everyone were frustrated.. It was the 1st lab session of the semester.. Generally practical sessions are supposed to be interesting, but on the very 2nd day where we don’t even know the syllabus properly and we were in the lab, sitting clueless!!
While there is nothing for us to practice, what the heck we are supposed to do was the question of the day!!
We were all waiting for only one thing in the lab… & that was attendance sheet :)
Yes, many might be thinking, why we wait for attendance sheet… The reason is simple. Attendance is compulsory (Lab – 75% and theory – 60%) Any student who has attendance shortage has to either pay the fine to the university or bribe the assistant in charge for each subject… bribe amount nothing less than Rs.1500…
So, there are many feel-good and feel-bad factors about the classes.. Let me mention a few..
Reasons why I get irritated:
1. The elevators don’t work on weekends.
2. The classes are conducted in 5th and 6th floor (I look like a wheezing patient by the time I reach class room)
(1st and 2nd are the major reasons why I don’t bunk classes in mid of the day once i'm in class)
3. Sunday’s schedule is from morning 9 to night 8!!
4. Poor hygiene in wash room…
5. Cafeteria next to the mortuary!!! As the college shares the campus with the hospital…
6. Busy bees buzzing busily around 2 huge beehives in the corridor of 6th floor, which is just opposite to the entrance of the lab rooms....
7. Even when there is nothing much to practice in lab sessions, students are made to wait till the attendance sheet is given... (A signature on attendance sheet is considered as end of the class)
Few feel good factors:
1. Classes are conducted regularly as per the schedule.
2. Justice is done to viva and the exams.
3. Internet in the systems in lab which doesn’t block gmail, orkut, yahoo etc…;)
4. College is close to the VV puram chat street.. So, anytime you feel like having something good, just hop on the bikes with your friends and go around ;)
These are few of my opinions. I’m sure if I ask others opinion, I would get few more reasons to exaggerate this post. Moreover I have to spend 2 more years of my weekends in the same college.. So, don’t want to point out any more reasons… After 2 years I will proudly come out of that place with master’s degree – MCA..
Like my friend who always reminds me to have a positive approach towards life, I finally decided; let me not think 2 yrs as 208 weekends rather let me think 2 yrs as “Just 2 yrs” :) and finish it off without much perplexity.....
Till the 3rd week of February, everything went on fine coz the classes had not started :) So, I got lot of time for shopping, roaming around and pampering myself.. As the saying goes, “All good things comes to an end”… My good days also came to an end in the last week of February when the classes actually kicked off :(
So, Saturday afternoon I picked up my bag and rushed to college as a sincere student.. By the way, I don’t bunk classes…the reason for which u will find out as u read on.... Classes got over early on the 1st day coz the lecturer was on leave… So, I happily went out to celebrate my friend's birthday :) Sunday morning I woke up late so I was late to college. After the lunch break we had lab session... & I must tell u that it was the most bugging time.
I noticed that it was not only me who had got irritated with the classes.. Everyone were frustrated.. It was the 1st lab session of the semester.. Generally practical sessions are supposed to be interesting, but on the very 2nd day where we don’t even know the syllabus properly and we were in the lab, sitting clueless!!
While there is nothing for us to practice, what the heck we are supposed to do was the question of the day!!
We were all waiting for only one thing in the lab… & that was attendance sheet :)
Yes, many might be thinking, why we wait for attendance sheet… The reason is simple. Attendance is compulsory (Lab – 75% and theory – 60%) Any student who has attendance shortage has to either pay the fine to the university or bribe the assistant in charge for each subject… bribe amount nothing less than Rs.1500…
So, there are many feel-good and feel-bad factors about the classes.. Let me mention a few..
Reasons why I get irritated:
1. The elevators don’t work on weekends.
2. The classes are conducted in 5th and 6th floor (I look like a wheezing patient by the time I reach class room)
(1st and 2nd are the major reasons why I don’t bunk classes in mid of the day once i'm in class)
3. Sunday’s schedule is from morning 9 to night 8!!
4. Poor hygiene in wash room…
5. Cafeteria next to the mortuary!!! As the college shares the campus with the hospital…
6. Busy bees buzzing busily around 2 huge beehives in the corridor of 6th floor, which is just opposite to the entrance of the lab rooms....
7. Even when there is nothing much to practice in lab sessions, students are made to wait till the attendance sheet is given... (A signature on attendance sheet is considered as end of the class)
Few feel good factors:
1. Classes are conducted regularly as per the schedule.
2. Justice is done to viva and the exams.
3. Internet in the systems in lab which doesn’t block gmail, orkut, yahoo etc…;)
4. College is close to the VV puram chat street.. So, anytime you feel like having something good, just hop on the bikes with your friends and go around ;)
These are few of my opinions. I’m sure if I ask others opinion, I would get few more reasons to exaggerate this post. Moreover I have to spend 2 more years of my weekends in the same college.. So, don’t want to point out any more reasons… After 2 years I will proudly come out of that place with master’s degree – MCA..
Like my friend who always reminds me to have a positive approach towards life, I finally decided; let me not think 2 yrs as 208 weekends rather let me think 2 yrs as “Just 2 yrs” :) and finish it off without much perplexity.....
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