HeYY RaaM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes we don’t get what we desire...and we are either forced to take what was destined to receive or be happy with whatever we have...

Dear readers do not assume that I am out from saint's ashram coz of the above statement!!

It’s just that I am annoyed!!

It so happened...I was looking for a song at 12 in the night (height of desperation to hear that song)...

First time I was serious about downloading the songs which I wanted to hear... While most of the times I get the songs from my friends or colleagues, this time I was in action coz none of them knew which song I was referring to!!
It was one of the song from the movie “Hey Ram” and my state by the time I found that song was “HeYY RaM!!!!” I was getting only the Tamil version of that song while I wanted the Hindi version…
The task of searching for that song was tedious as I wasn’t aware of the lyrics.. I only remembered the piano and humming tune of it!! After browsing for long, I finally found the song in one of the sites ( I have forgotten the site name now) .. Quickly I downloaded and switched off the pc… While I was abt to doze off, I thought of playing that song assuming it would sound like dummy lorrri….and to my horror the song that played was a loud noisy marathi folk song!!!!! I felt like suing the site from which I downloaded!!! And unfortunately I dint remember the site address!!
Within seconds I cleared that song from my memory card!!! And threw my cell aside….
Dint dare to download the song for next three days…..untill my friend finally the hindi
version of the original song and passed it on to me……. :)
Thanks a lot :)

Random Rattlings

A strange thought just started eating my mind when i was peacefully sitting in the bus on the way back home...

I was reading a novel when i heard the girl sitting next to me wailing over her phone telling -"You hurt me...so i hurt you back on purpose to let you know that i am hurt" .. She then continued, saying, "You dont know how much it hurts me when i tried to hurt you"

There was sudden rush of thoughts in my mind, like:
-> Can we get a tongue twister out of these words coz the word "hurt" is used to many times in a single sentence!!
-> You are no more going to think of tongue twisters coz that lady seems to be sad or rather hurt!!
-> Its bad manners to hear others conversation lady!! (But i couldnt help coz she was sitting right next to me and her voice was audible)
-> Bad manners just paves way when the situation favors...(i had forgetten the headsets at home!)
-> Common!! headset is not mandatory in bus sweetie!! Shoo away that thought! Headsets tucked into ears for long time has hazardous effect.
-> Concentrate on the novel...thats more interesting :)
-> Listening to others talks and getting curious on what they are going through is also not-so-pleasant-thing to do..

And last of all the thoughts, Isnt it that her sentence had surely got some strong meaning to ponder.. -> By hurting the loved one, it doesnt prove that she wanted to take revenge or play tit for tat..It hurt her too to hurt her dear one.. But then there must be some purpose why she preferred to hurt to whoever!
Hmmm.. what a true thing she said though..

I thought for a while abt it coz i couldnt take my mind out. Had i really hurt someone? (Yes) Hadnt i given a second chance? (Yes, i gave second...third... fourth... many times) Had i not forgiven everytime they apoligized (I had..before the limits crossed)...

There were few more questions popping in my mind by the time i reached home and after reaching home, all those got evaporated as i soon realized i was hungry ;) Brain had got enough to think...so next was the time for the digestive system to work :)

Blunders just happen!!!

Its true that the blunders just happens.. And most times it happens unknowingly unless someone is very specific on screwing others life!!

It was in the noon when a lady walked up to us from blue while my teammate and I were seriously working... She just asked may i know who is Prathima...
Before even i could say its me, my team mate enthusiatically said her name.. This put the stranger in confusion coz my team mate's name resembled my name and has only 1 letter which is different...

Lady: errr......i am now confused by the names.. i assume the manager asked me to meet prathima..

Team mate: Its ok... We both can give you the same info so its ok to talk to any one of us..

Me: Still smiling... What’s your name?? New member to our team??

Lady: yeah, myself Smitha and Yeah, new to this team..:)

Me: Oh cool, welcome.. get on board :)

Team mate: Nice :) Experienced?? Which technology?

Lady: Yeah... was working on XYZ company till date..

Me and team mate: Cool, nice :)

Lady: So can you tell me abt this prjt?? May be i will try to get to know a bit..

Me: Hmm... whole of this floor works for the same prjt.. and our team stretches till (pointing at few cubilces) there..
And then a bit of blablabla just to give her some rough idea abt the client..

Team mate: (Got fully charged by our client's name).. Umm... and u knw what... there is No good things to tell abt our client.. No guddy bags.. No that..No this... Nothing!! Dabba prjt!!

Me: (got influenced) ya ya.. True.. (Added all the humming needed to keep my team mate talking and assured that what ever she utters is true)
And we giggled for some time as that was our usual fun time.....
We then asked the lady to join us to collect the FREE coupons allotted to women as part of "Celebrating women’s day" in ground floor...

Team mate: In this project there is no hope of getting coupons, so let’s collect the coupons sponsored by the cmpny!!

All the 3 rushed to the door..

Next scene -> Ground floor:
No coupons were left as we were late..

Me: Ohhhh!! This sucks!! We dint get even this!! Time kharab chal raha hai shaayad!!

Lady: That’s ok.. Next time :)

Me and team mate: Oh god!! This cmpny cannot get more coupons is it!! Sick ppl!!

Next scene -> Next day :
A mail popped into our mail box from our manager which said "Kindly come to Meeting room to invite the new TL Ms.Smitha"

Me and team mate: Almost slipped from the seat!! Jaws sagging!! Shocked!! Cold fingers!! and the voice in unison, "She was our TL" oops!!!!! We are dead today.. We might get thrown out of this project to have praised abt all the bad points of this client!!
Gosh, we asked only her technology and never thought who the hell she was!!

Next scene -> Meeting room:
TL: Smiling :)
We: Confused, regretful, sorry, run-away mood...Still smiling :) :) Lol!!!!! One hell of a blunder!!!!

Happy Happy :)

Calls at 12am........Happy mood....... continuous smiles.......... sound sleep.......... parents........blessings.....… hopes.......prayers.......... the gift of time....… sweet scented room.......a lovely dress........winter breeze......... Thick coat..... scarf......soothing music.......fun........ books...... endless smiles... :)

The loved one........endless laughter...........celebration.......family....… surprises.........the candles........ yummy pastry......... a new dress….... nice perfume.....… gifts........ delicious home made food........well wishes........ eyes full of dreams......… full of smiles.........endless photo sessions....… a special day............. blessed by love :) .......... Add on to memory :)

Thanks for everything…. :)
Life is simply beautiful :) Just the way I always wanted it to be :)

Simple...........sweet........super.......... :)

Few more months!!

In continuation to one of my post (Just 2 more years) when i was waiting for the MCA to get over...Now its all here....... Few more months!!
There are no weekend classes, no assignments, no lab sessions...no cribbing about the condition of elevators, no complaints on canteen.... This sounds good to some extent coz now we spend the days on earth with some kind of peace :)

And now am finally in the final sem of Master’s degree...which sounds really good for many reasons.. :) Now, I can go out with my loved one….try hard to open my eyelids at 10am on weekends…feel the warmth of sunlight which tries hard to wake me (mom being generous by not disturbing)….. wake up to the fresh smell of breakfast which mom cooks… meet relatives/cousins…..etc, the lengthy list of what not we can do in weekends goes on…

Until I find some new activity to fill my time, I quietly wonder about the 2.5yrs of hectic weekend schedule which just passed on to the fully-free weekends…. Will catch up with my hobbies soon though… :)

While parting on the last day of 5th sem, my friend said, "Don’t know when we will meet again".. … and without giving a second thought, I gladly said, "Soon"...and luckily the luck turned in our favor... She joined the same company as mine :)
I am getting suspicious coz things turned out true on what I said :) (I regret for the moment when I dint utter “We are going to onsite together”) :p

Back to the happy mood :) I met her as a stranger when both of us started our career in the same company and on the same day…Soon we became batch mates-> colleagues -> friends -> classmates -> best friends :)
Just the places flipped, Instead of the deserted 5th or 7th floor classrooms, we now have food together at office cafeteria.. Chat.. gossip.. discuss...etc over the office communicator instead of classrooms and corridors :)

Life is a mixture of moments filled with happy hours…sad moments…scary at times…surprising when least expected… but all in all, a rollercoaster ride :) and I am enjoying it :)


PS: Hey rabbit looks…….. I owe this post to you :)

~~Nostalgic Waves~~

It was early morning hours when I went to the breakout area at office to get some water in my bottle….. I must say- the lake view from the breakout area is too good… Felt like looking at the view for longer, so I silently stood there keeping my cell aside and a cup of chocolate milk (yeah, I like the extra sweet drink)..

The breeze was just complimenting the lake…. The waves moved in the direction of the breeze…. Wow!! Such a beautiful creation of the almighty I thought…. Though I couldn’t hear the sound of the water from the top floor of this sealed tower, I could still imagine that I was happily sitting near the shore, with my legs dipped in the cold lake water…

The weather outside is just like our life: sometimes good, sometimes bad… For some time it gave me a relaxing feeling……..and later the nature has its own ways to pull me back to the nostalgic moments… I recollected the years which I spent at Goa… All happy happy moods, the beach, the hat, the time, people around, the lovely Goan songs etc…….
I quickly realized that I can’t go back to that time….and I wondered what I am doing!! Working – which I really enjoy… Studying- just to get the feather on my hat of master’s degree (for namesake and for accomplishing my ambitions)! Keeping the pace with colleagues (so that I don’t stand behind)!
Felt like I am running with the time and simply straining myself by leading the fast-life to die young!! In my childhood, I always wished that I would lead my life as per my dreams… But now I feel, we are living thinking more about the next future slab! And have apparently forgotten that we the present slab was once our “dream future” which we dreamt in the childhood days.. :(

Keeping pace with time, I realized that I had spent solid 20 mins in the breakout area and I had lots of work to be completed... So, rushed back to work….
While typing this, I am planning for a long vacation to come out of the stressful life… Hope my vacation leaves gets approved :)

Morning Showers :) :)

Well.. Its raining outside and I must confess that my mood swings when ever it rains :)
There is something abt the rain that changes my mood.. my mind starts wandering… and the smell of the mud just makes me think of all the good things..
And I blankly consider that it’s the love of sky with earth in the form of rain.. though they can never meet, the sky showers the rain and the earth being receptive to it, responds by making the nature look more beautiful……….(This sounds a bit poetic unlike my usual posts…and I blame the rain to infuse poetic mood in me!)

The early hours in the morning when I am comfortably seated in the office bus, warmly sitting in the window seat with the curtain slightly open for me to get the view of the outside world…… My mind was singing “Saavan barrse tarrse dil……….yaar ek yaar ke intezar mein” and I received the text message from my darling informing me that the weekend is planned :) with two little sweet smileys at the end of msg :)… it was pleasant feeling….such a nice sync between the song and the msg …. I was waiting to meet :)

I switched on the player on my mobile to just keep me awake for sometime until I finally dozed off in bus... I opted the 1st song to be played and then opted the random options in the player so that songs don’t repeat…. The 1st song was simply chosen to keep going with my mood which was “Saavan beeto jaaye pe harwa…which is a khamaj song” and then the songs played in random were “Kailash kher’, Sayyan….Tu jo dekhe pyaar se…” then “You’re my #1 by Enrique Iglesias”..
Wow!! Such lovely tracks played back to back…..and all thanks to my player to keep in good mood until the journey lasted….

As I reached office, I saw people with people in raincoats and umbrellas just having good time walking towards their respective towers…
And there I was….walking without any umbrella:(…drenched like a bird and shivering in cold… and wondering why I dint obey to mom while she asked me to carry an umbrella… But things do not matter much…The overall experience was good :)

Aren’t we afraid of few species..?

It’s a few days back incident which happened with me… Unlike all other days when I am always late to the bus, that day I was a bit early to the bus.. I happily chose my seat in the bus as not many had come to the bus yet…
Was curiously checking in my bag for the headset which my mind said “U have misplaced!!!”…while my heart silently wished, “check it once again dear, u aren’t careless”…
So, adhering to my heart’s wish, I started to check inside the bag vivaciously, when I suddenly found something crawling!!!!! The next few series of actions were – I pulled out my hand from the bag within seconds!! My heart beat gained velocity!! I pushed my bag suddenly towards the window and waited to see if something would rush outside.. There wasn’t any hint of sound so I was clueless as to whether there was a cockroach or not!! I locked all the zips of the bag, assuring myself that the cockroach would die out of suffocation if at all it exists!!
After ½ hr, I could neither sleep nor sit awake…with my mind wondering abt what could possibly have attracted a cockroach to encroach into my bag while there is nothing worth inside of its use!!
Gathering all my courage, I slowly opened the bag to peep inside if I could find it… I pulled out the book and locked the bag quickly…. Then messaged my friend and sis and explained abt the situation……and received instant replies with Sis exclaiming “OMG!!” and friend being a animal rights activist said “Paaaaapa, badukkolli bidu” .. The very next thought in my mind was “Paaapi can never be paaaaapa” coz in childhood days, sis used to tell me that if ppl do any wrong deed in present life, then in their next birth they would be born as cockroach and insects!! (* For the benefit of all non-kannada readers, paaaapa word is used to show mercy on innocent)…
I still wanted to pull out my headsets from the bag, so after another 15 mins, I boldly put my hand coz I my mind strongly sent the signal, “sweetie, u are more powerful than that creature”… I had weapons like my sandals…books…raincoat and what not!! The crawling creature was a weaponless warrior!!..
As I looked inside, there wasn’t anything.. and I wondered what would that be which I made my mind alert to such an extent! The next series of actions were – Tied up my hair… Pulled out all the stuff from the bag and dusted it upside down to see if there wasn’t anything… It seemed as though I was desperate like a kid in search of candy!!
Finally I put an end to this melodrama! Realized that it was some piece of woolen thread from my sweater which gave me an illusion of cockroach!
Hah!!! I regretted for wasting the time in bus for no good reason… Neither did I sleep nor did I read the book… I dint even listen to music!! And since it’s the exam season, I had to stretch in night to patch up the time for studying :(

The busy Bangalore:)

Waking to the sound of crazy traffic noises while I am dozing in the bus and navigating through areas that are highly congested. This city is a bit like an ongoing project. The change in government means that some projects gets left and new ones starts to improve the area. Many of the roads have been resurfaced; this work is done as a combination of input from foreign tech business requirement and the local government.

That might seem like a good thing, but as the work is done, the population has grown fast, so the roads, new or old are still very crowded.

The metro rail construction which is supposed to decongest the roads, has begun and the construction work doesn’t seem like its going to complete sooner :( .. I happened to read an article which said that Bangalore metro construction would take another 10 ten yrs to complete…… The very next impulse of my heart asked me – “Would I wish to continue in Bangalore!?”

From the window seat of the bus, sometimes i enjoy the view of the roadside, where people irrespective of whether there is traffic or not, rain, winter or scorch summer, people simply move on :)… The shopping areas of the city are full of banners of the new brands, offers and with discounts and nice smiling models portrayed with the products… The view of the old thatched buildings, the compound or walls decorated with the latest movie wallpaper… And the new feel-good factor is the idea to avoid the movie adds on the walls, the government has employed the painters to showcase the Karnataka culture on walls and compounds! I must appreciate the painters!! What a brilliant job !!! [Sadly it isn’t the place where the painters are supposed to be appreciated :( ]

Hmm… yet there is something about the city which keeps bulging with more and more people… People cribbing about the less space, high rent, high cost of living, and still sticking to the decision of settling here assuming the life will be easier in n e a r F u T u R e ! !

Waiting to watch you speak :)

Yet another boring corporate training and I was also one of the participants… It wasn’t out of interest that I decided to attend this training, but because it was mandatory for us!!

By the time I entered the room, the trainer was already in!! I apologized for being 5 mins late and he excused me with a smile saying its never too late :) …
Hmm… my eyes were looking for the last row corner seats (somehow they are the most preferred seats for everybody and only one person bags it) I was lucky enough to get it as not many attendees had come yet….

The trainer quickly started off the session once most of them were in @ 9am.. To begin with he asked us to take chart paper and jott down few points on the specified topics…
That was an activity… Most of us were browsing for more points to fill the chart paper… Soon after 15 mins he asked us to present it…

From my experience, I have observed that people suddenly start coughing, feeling dizzy, they get head-ache and all sorts of ache when they are supposed to come to the center stage…
Its not only in the training as such.. but even while people are in a holiday mood with their friends & family members, when they are supposed to initiate a antakshari…..Those people who are freaking crazy and enjoying their time, suddenly fall sick!! ?? hah!!!

All I understand is – such people are shy or scared of humiliation incase they go wrong while presenting themselves…Or may b scared of criticism which they may get after their presentation….
There is a quote, “When a man speaks, people listen and then look… and when a woman speaks, people look and then listen”… I partially agree on this depending on the topic of the orator…..
As long as it’s a serious discussion and we have no clue of the topic, it’s apt to sit back and listen..! And when the topic is a bit common and we too have bit of knowledge on it, its better to make use of the opportunity to voice our thoughts..


There is nothing we need to be scared of…. In case we go wrong while uttering one or two words, there is NO harm.. We can always correct them…
Always remember, No man is perfect, imperfection is what makes us human…:)

Lost in the land of humans!!!

I was a bit free yesterday and had no significant task to complete.... After long hectic Monday to Thursday at office, my energy level had fully gone down by Friday... The only thing which i did was yawn!! True, i was yawning.. I did that for more than 8-10 times!!

For a moment i thought i can go around the office lounge and come back.... But quickly realized that this is not my previous company where the company's campus resembled a resort.... This new campus is a true corporate jungle!! All i could see was buildings, glass covered walls, lots of doors for every entry and at every entry i had to punch my access card so that the company could track me!!(i don’t know why someone wants to track on where i was roaming).

I saw few people with shining shoes outside the block roaming around to complete hyperbolic curves.... For a moment i thought- was it a ramp show rehearsal as everything that they were wearing and holding were all branded!! Off course branded as Tech guys!! so there they were Brand IT with branded stuff!!

Hmm.. Most of them with the same kind of expression on their faces... Sometimes convincing and sometimes blasting over the phone...and a crowd of curious bystanders drinking tea/coffee watching sky or anything that comes in the angle of their view!! I was wondering why none of those people with coffee ever spoke!.. Outside the campus were all seasoned smokers, so i hoped they would all gel well...but NO... They weren’t!! While most of them looked as though they were sailing on the same boat of work pressure, why don’t they speak and share what they feel instead of feeling lonely in the city is what I didn’t understand....

Back then we made friends who were from studying in different schools, living in different lanes... We all used to mingle and play games on the narrow lanes, grounds, roof tops etc.... On the contrary now, even though we know that the other person is from the same company, working in same floor, same technology -but people don’t even bother to share a smile! Strange!!

For my chagrin, the people never even bothered to look at the person sitting beside in the office bus!! I was vexed the very first week when i found none smiling!! The sudden rush of emotions pulsed through me whenever i thought as to why I became a part of this unfriendly environment... Possibly it was oblivious to remember faces of colleagues...

Am really lost..... Except the work and the top clients which are the only few things i enjoy here, i enjoy nothing else!! Well, to skip one step ahead in my profession was my own decision… but losing all smiling people around and at times forgetting to smile myself has been a bit painful :(

Now the only few things i enjoy here is my work and when i am tired, i stand in the corridor alone and try to enjoy the view of coconut groove spread over a wide area outside the office premises while the cool breeze silently whispers in my ears, “Cheer up dear… we are here for you”

Bus day in Namma Bengaluru...

Day before yesterday was the Bus day in Bangalore!! True… I got several mails regarding that from both my colleagues and the admin team stating Thursday 4th Feb is “Bus day” in namma bengaluru with a tag line as save Money, Energy and Time…..
The bus day was particularly focused on two traffic hit areas viz hosur road and old airport road. Hence BMTC had requested all the people traveling to that area by private vehicles to make use of BMTC buses…. The funda behind calling for this day was researchers wanted to check the difference it can make in terms of traffic congestion and air pollution. And yes, additional to it was the promotion and encouragement to all the fellow travelers to make use of BMTC buses..

For a moment when I heard Bus day I assumed that there is no bus fair on that particular day to reach any place in bangalore… and had even assumed that the some new buses are released which are eco-friendly for so………. Somehow dint like the fact that the “bus day” celebration was specific to two corridors and not the whole city… Why not call for a day as “bus day” and check the traffic congestion and air quality in the whole city instead of confining to only two corridors!!
I wish some day government announces “No Traffic day” with the punch line as “To: Fro = 1:1” where all the travelers would reach home early… I don’t know what will be the criteria to call for such a day but I wish they do….. I personally felt this coz my travel time to office is in sync with 1:2 ratio!!! Morning I can cover a particular distance in 1 hr which takes 2hrs to cover the same distance in the evening!! I feel office is nearer to home in the morning and VerY far from home in the evening..
Hope one fine day Bangalore city’s all the ongoing flyover and metro rail construction gets completed once in for all so that most of us can reach home in time :)

What’s your priority??

After all the crazy commercial ad that we see these days… here is something which caught my attention……..the chocolate shampoo!!! The parachute company as released its new “chocolate shampoo”!!!! Gosshhhh!! I wonder who gives them creative ideas like this!!
Was even wondering if it was really a shampoo or some something else!!

I saw the chocolate shampoo ad on a large poster put by forum mall…. I showed it to my neighbor in the bus… He saw it for a while and with a confused look on his face he said, “lets c that ad again tomorrow while passing this road”. His reply made it clear that he too was in a dilemma…

We are all living by using few products which makes no sense if we think otherwise… The product companies are trying their best to publicize their products as “the best/the popular” to make profits... While the advertising agency perhaps waits for another new product to be released so that they can commercialize it…

Considering few commercials which we get to see and hear regularly:
The dog biscuits - the ad say, “The dog biscuits with improved taste in 5 different flavors and extra nutrition”… (Can anyone say who tasted it?? Off course humans.. lol)..
Colgate toothpaste with salt…taste it before using it coz the ad says – kya aapke tooghpaste mein namak hai??
The height of commercialization is gone up to a state where we get lemon/orange juice with artificial flavors and dishwasher liquids with real lemon and orange extracts… Get gold coins in the soap bar is another such ad…(sadly none of them seem to have got it)
The pug breed of dog got more popularized than the hutch network…(a healthy pug costs nearly Rs.30K)

We really live in a funny world... Here we get education loan at the interest rate of 12 -15% with the processing time of 10-15 days while we get car loans at 8-9% interest rates plus the processing time of just 2 days!...
In the race between an ambulance and a pizza delivery, its always the pizza which reaches earlier….

Seems like we have prioritized the value-addition or freebies on products more than the main product…. Like the saying in kannada says- “gubbi ethu anta hosa shirt holsidha”(just coz he had few buttons, had got stitched a new shirt)…
Simple in the case of chocolate shampoo…Shampoo is important here but the ad focuses on chocolate flavor more!! Sad but true…

God fearing ??

Its 10.32 am here at office on a Tuesday morning… The busy hours when we get to hear only tic-tic of the mouse and the tapping of key board…. Amidst of this today I heard a religious song playing in the background… I was wondering who it could be… Out of curiosity, I walked to the next cubicle..
I saw a guy playing all religious songs in his mobile with the lowest audible tone… I knew that he loved listening to Kannada and Tamil songs (not religious though…).. Once again out of curiosity I asked him, “wassup with u?? Listening to religious songs today…instead of those tangy dance numbers”…… and the reply he gave me stunned me for a while… He said, “mom went to purohith yesterday….and it seems I have got shani dasha in my horoscope… so to reduce the shani effect, I decided to listen to these songs”… I smiled and came back to my cubicle after hearing the genuine prompt reply….

Haahh!! Can anyone explain me, how on earth the bad luck would shoo off if we listen to music of Lord Shiva…which is sung by the man whose voice resembles to a man who has been strangled to death and is weeping yet singing “brahma muraari suraarchita lingam….”

Then I realized that its not only him who is god fearing or rather horoscope-fearing guy around … There is another devotee in the other side ODC who has decorated his work space with photo frame of a deity… (I still haven’t recognized which deity it is), sai baba’s pic stuck on his name plate… A flower offered to lord ganesha’s idol next to his pen stand… Radha Krishna’s photo as his desktop wallpaper!! & finally a small pic of goddess laxmi affixed on his writing board!!!! Devotion in extremes… :)
Am not supposed to mention his name, but frankly telling his first and middle names are also of deities…. :) When I first entered his cubicle for a project related discussion, I felt as though I need to remove my sandals and enter coz it looked to me more like a temple…. The only reason given by him for keeping so many pics and idols was “Google cannot answer all our questions right?? So…”.. Hmmm.. witty answer :)

Another strange behavior people have got while traveling is touch the forehead and heart simultaneously / softly slap the cheeks on either side thrice / remove their sandals and fold their hands for 2 seconds - all these once they see a temple…strange!! This is seen very commonly in Bangalore…no matter they pray at home or not.. Devotion comes automatically on road :)

I seriously don’t understand whether people are trying to impress god by doing all such activities or giving themselves a little time… Prayer should not be an attempt to change God’s mind….it should be an attempt to let God change our mind…


PS- Devotees…plz don’t mind on the comments abt the pics and idols..

Love at first sight :)

I am in love….. Yes.. true…….. I fell in love just few hours back…. It was no hushhrushh, no gossips, no following up, nobody got even the slightest doubt…. Its love at first sight!! A simple love :) Just the way I wanted it to be :)….

It all happened so fast you know…….. I fell in love after I entered the office, in my cubicle :) … that too with one, everyone waits to c…. and ppl expect the reason incase of absence!! Oh my god!! I am so excited to tell you all abt this news :)… My love :)

Let me give the prelude of it….
As usual I was drafting my “good morning” email to all my near and dear ones…… and a lovely GM quote was copied from one of the text message which I got it on my cell - “U cant make someone love u.. all u can do is be with someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize ur worth…”.. I was looking for one of the perfect flower to attach in my email….. and by the time I finished drafting and the mail was ready to be sent, I was in love……..
Well, to break the suspense and to let u know who the lucky one with whom I fell in love….. It’s nonetheless than the flower what I found in Google search……. It’s the lovely rose!! The moment I saw it, I wished to see it in real (which I couldn’t).. So, I quickly added it in the email and sent it to everyone… Within ½ an hour I got replies telling “lovely rose/ nice quote/ nice background/ mood changed / too good rose….etc”..
Though I couldn’t see the rose in real, I really enjoyed seeing it throughout the day as my pc wallpaper and in the replies to that mail…..

So, this was my love story……. Love at first sight :)… On the way back home, I decided to grow a rose plant which would yield beautiful roses which I can see and enjoy right from the bud till the rose blooms and finally until it withers….

Mixed Emotions!!!

Some times, smile turns to tears when we are sure that things are happening for good…. It’s when ppl are too happy, the tears fills the eyes for a moment…
Smile turns to tears when the parents see their first baby…...... When farmers see the most awaited monsoon after a long time…...... When the most loved person is seen after many years…...... Bidding bye to friends on the last day of college…...... When ppl get the offer letter from their dream company…...... When grandparents see their kith and kins after many years…...... When we see that ppl are happy and we were the reason behind their happiness…...... When ppl look back to the time when they struggled and worked hard to reach to good heights today…...... When the kid pulls back his/her mothers arms and says plz don’t go to office today…...... When the daughter is bidding bye to her parents after marriage etc…………….

There are few disappointing situation and ppl force themselves to have a smile on their face… That's when they don’t feel comfortable in other’s presence. More than a smile on the face :) , ppl get to see an unpleasant curve :s…
Times when 10marks question is asked for 3 marks!!!…...... When none of the old question ppr questions are repeated in the exam!!(Students sit and pray- bhagwaan kaise bhi karrke pass karrdo even after knowing that there are no hopes to pass)!!!…...... Teachers distributing test papers in front of juniors!!!…...... HoD sitting next to us on a tour (hard to pretend as an obedient student)!!!…...... Extremely good looking girl/guy crossing the way when ppl are with their parents!!!…...... When ppl realize that all their personal sms’s are already read by parents!!!…...... When the most innocent guy/girl who are considered next to sages…are caught with their gf/bf in cinema theatre by their friends!!! :) etc………………

In life there are many times when we don’t know how to react… Kind of confusion arises whether to smile or cry or feel sad or get anger…. When heart says Yes and mind says No… And that’s when mixed reaction comes in picture :) Smiling but not heartily.. Crying by hiding tears…. Sad and yet shadowing the sorrow with the smile… :)...... :s........ :(

//Nostalgic Thoughts//

Something abt the rainy days that we are having these days makes me turn inward.. May be the heart and soul subconsciously react to rain in that way so I opt to stay indoors… The chill weather, a tea kettle… hot pakodas….the pitter patter of rain drops… to stare out of window at the rainfall… to watch the raindrops on the perennial trees… the occasional lightning and thunder….sitting back in the cozy nest of the comfort….. listening to songs which can change the mood of the entire room to romantic… and incase we don’t have that someone spl in our lives, imagining the invisible man/woman holding our hands tightly…
Is there anything i can think of to make the feeling better… ahem ahemm… let me not exaggerate on it now :)

Well, rainy seasons somehow reminds of many things……. Most of us carry volumes of stories and every story has some feelings attached with it… Common memories include the sweet memories of the childhood… Memories could be of the first bicycle…or the time when we fell from the swing... or the first soft toy whom we named as Bruno…or the first Barbie doll as the birthday present…(childhood role model) …. the first remote control car… or the first pink colored birthday frock!! Hmmm….. our good old nostalgic days!!!!
And then the memories of our first school teacher (Ms Marie)… Our best buddy beside us in class and school van… The scent rubber… The hand made greeting cards…. The first ink pen… The sports day… school day function…..The first high heel sandals and action shoes… First day in college… New friends…… Teachers renamed as lecturers… Stepping towards the professional life… first company…….The first project… first appraisal etc ……

I guess after I grow old, I will have many more things to add on in this space !! Why only me, everyone else will have their own thoughts to combat the their boredoms and to have a reason to get cheerful……which they would recall on yet another rainy day. . .

Pursuit of time . . .

Its was a Wednesday morning at 7am when I was in the office bus looking outside the window, the pleasant Bangalore winter... Everyone had shut their windows tight to avoid the cold breeze in the speeding bus.... As always, my affinity towards window seat made me look outside... The view wasn’t clear coz our breath was warmer and it made the window glasses appear blur.. I opened the window for a moment as i was feeling suffocated inside… and the other reason is I wanted the view through the window to be clear :)

The misty air just blew on my face and my mood completely changed.... Aah, what a feel it was!! Commendable:)
I remembered my college days when i was traveling in the local BMTC bus without caring if I would catch cold... It was nice... My good old days. . . .

I was lost in those thoughts with my headphones tucked in my ears and was enjoying the songs... I was listening to James Blunt's- You're beautiful.. its true... Then the next song was - Tum itna jo muskurarahe ho, kya ghum hai jisko chupa rahe ho.... I was moved by this song... I felt as though the cosmic force around me were questioning me.... I surely dint want to answer!! I quickly shuffled the songs and played the next song...
It was the KK's Pal song - Hum rahe ya na rahe kal.. kal.. yaad aayenge yeh pal... pal.. yeh hai pyaar ke pal.. chal aa mere sang chal.. chal soche kya... choti si hai zindagi..... kal mil jaaye toh hogi khushnaseeb hi.. That song almost made my eyes wet!! I remember singing that song for my dear friend Ayesha..... I had sung it just for her on the last day of our college... I had told her that whenever we hear that song, it would remind us about each other... And the song just did that!! Its never too late to tell anyone that we truly miss them..
Finally with my heart filled with emotions... it was time for me to get down as we had reached office... I walked to my block in the cool breeze and then to the AC hit cubicle!! I gave her a call on mobile, but I guess the she was still sleeping, so I messaged her on cell waiting for her prompt reply (after she wakes up) and I silently went out for a cup a coffee and later got back to work. . . . I wish I could go back to my good old days… when I never bothered to see my schedule if my friends called me out…
Remembered the time when we always said “Lets meet and then plan something” and now we land up saying, “Lets plan and meet someday”… Friends are the same….. It’s just the priorities which have changed… :(

Experience with doctors :)

Today morning my colleague was narrating her experience with doctors… she said me abt the strange phobia that she has…. She is scared of medicines coz she always feels that it will get stuck in her throat!! Even worse what I heard from her was, she grinds the tablets and mixes with sugar and swallows!!! Yakkk shackkkkks…….!!!

I learnt that she is scared abt anything that doctors give and use – syringe for example…. No doubt most of them(girls) are scared of syringes...

Then all of a sudden I remembered my blood donation experience in my 1st yr graduation.. I was in the 2nd sem when there was a blood donation camp in our college.
It was when me and my friend were coming back from lunch that I saw the crowd in the college cellar and was curious to know abt it……
My friend, Ayesha said me that it’s a free medical camp from BKF (Bangalore Kidney Foundation).. So, after learning that it’s one of the reputed hospitals of the city, I decided to go for it…
Though I dint like the mere smell of medicines, I decided to go.
After the doctor checked my BP, heart beats, weight etc and she declared I am normal and I assumed that it was the routine check up… Then the next doctor asked me to show my nails which was neatly painted, so he couldn’t do any calcium test :) and he held my finger.. I dint know for what good reason… He said blood test… Then I realized that it was a blood donation camp in my college!!
For a moment I thought I can run away saying I am feeling dizzy….. But the next thought which I got was, it’s a noble deed to donate blood….. Frankly telling, That was just the last thought that I got……I donated blood coz it was my first time blood donation… Secondly till that day, I dint know my blood group, so I was happy that I would know.. Thirdly, the slogan stuck in my mind was “Was it you who saved my life? Help save another, give blood”…:)

I donated my blood with ease and no rona-dhona after the syringe was injected in my veins!! I was abt to take a quick nap there when the doctor came rushing to chk if I fainted… I was fit and fine…. and by then the blood bag was filled with my holy blood..
Then doctor offered me lot of stuff to eat and advised me not to climb the stairs…
As always, I love breaking rules… so, I went happily to attend classes in 1st floor…

The class, 2-3 session was really boring and suddenly I felt dizzy… The lecturer saw me sleeping on the desk and came near me (out of concern or to scold me) .. I almost fainted there and the lecturer was in panic… She called the doctor while I was still lying on the desk.. The doctor held my face and sprinkled or rather poured water on my face!! Sick fellow!! All my face powder gone in a minute!! He tapped my face or rather it was kind of slap for me.. Till date no one had dared to touch my cheeks… and the day someone touched, it was a kind of slap!!!! I will never forgive that doctor!!!
Anyway, I got my conscious back with the doctors grace and I saw everyone around me… After the doctor left, Ayesha whispered, “thanks for suspending the class” :)..

I removed the band-aid on my hand after 3 days when someone sarcastically asked me if I was donating blood daily!!! Gosh… sick question!!!!

Parting is painful!!!!

Two months back, our project had taken 6 new members which contributed to make our development team size considerably big. Yesterday two of my team mates got released from our project. Both of them were good resource in the project and I had lot of interaction with them in terms of delegating work and clarifying project related issues… It was a nice learning and working experience in the project as few of them were new to the technology.. They were new to our team 2 months back and I had the full privilege of giving KT(Knowledge Transfer) to all of them…
We were a team of happy-happy members with lot of unity and fun even though we worked on weekends!!

Parting is something which I don’t like… Be it in movies or real life… I feel so sad when my neighbors switch their residence…though I wouldn’t have ever spoken to them and only smiled each time i saw them.. So, when it came to my own team members, i really felt for them... I knew I shouldn’t be sad but I couldn’t even pretend that I am happy or normal.. I couldn’t say my feelings to anyone coz who knows, even I am not born-for this project…. So, one fine day our team has to split, once the project gets over… I knew this is a fixed project, so would get over after a particular duration… But I dint realize it until my PM sent a mail to the whole team informing abt the release of two members!! The subject of the mail clearly said me that it isn’t a mail which I can take as a good news!! I read the mail carefully and had to bid bye to those two members, so I did that after thinking for a while…
For sometime I dint turn up to either of them…coz I dint know what to say… Finally, I knew I shouldn’t run away from my responsibilities being their team mate… So, I gathered all my courage and respect, and congratulated them heartly and wished all the best…. It was difficult for me to hide my emotions but I had to, so I did….

Saying Bye is difficult, and its intensified after saying Bye and seeing them go.. Its just that we have to console ourself that the world is small and we would meet again… Far from truth, but it’s the only thing which we can blindly assume…..

On the way back home, I really thought about how many times I have faced this situation… It’s a mixed reaction… I was happy and unhappy at the same time….
I was sad & happy when my sister parted from me after her marriage; When my friend left for her higher studies for 3 long yrs; When my friend decided to quit this company leaving me; On the last day of my college etc……… The thoughts were countless!! But this is the way of life… Kabhi khushi kabhi ghum :)

Power of progress is change and its inevitable…. So, be it so…